Today I finally saw something on the scale that I have been wanting to see since my last post. A drop in the numbers on the scale. The last few days have been like some kind of yo-yo, but I never hit the 250 lb mark again, so that is something to be thankful for. Today, the scale reflected a weight of 243.4 which is the lowest I've seen in quite some time. Of course, I'm not supposed to be looking at the scale...I should be judging my progress on so many other factors...but of course, that is hard to do when you've spent so many years using the scale as the measuring stick.
I haven't planned any of the holiday menus yet, but I am pretty sure I will be able to do a reasonable job with that stuff. Of course, I plan to indulge in some yummy treats but hopefully I will carefully select where I want to spend my extra calories and keep those to a minimum on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day.
Exercise continues to be a struggle for me, but I have to give props to my girl Kimber. She doesn't give up on me and stays on track with the gym visits even on days when she would rather go home and just play with baby K. Yesterday, she kicked my butt hard on the cardio and I teared up a couple of times. I was fighting back tears, but I pushed through it and finished what she asked me..which was a 30 minute cycle on the treadmill followed by a 15 min torture time on the elliptical. A few times I "paused" which really means I just added extra time to my misery...but I did finish...and there is no better feeling than to be done. I don't mean that feeling of accomplishment you get from achieving something you never thought you could do. I mean the sheer happiness that you feel when you don't have to keep moving. I don't enjoy exercise, but I know it is a missing piece of this weight loss puzzle I have been trying to put together for the past few years. Tomorrow is water aerobics so yippee...I enjoy that because there is a lot less sweating involved.
Three more weeks til my next Dr. appointment and I can't wait...I really hope that my number is below 240 by that time...I think he will be surprised and pleased and I know that I can mark that off of my "goal" list.
BTW, I have been meaning to post a "before" pic....and finally have done that. It is certainly not a "happy pic", but one that is necessary in order to truly "SEE MYSELF" as I am now.
Hope everyone is enjoying this special time of year and the loved ones who are still here to share it with us. My SIL is having a tough time cuz my big brother passed away this year and it is her first year without him by her side at the holidays. I wish I could help her and make things better, but I know that there is nothing I can say to her to take away this pain. She said in my Christmas card this year that "life will never be the same". And she is right...it's not the same for me either...I loved my brother so much...but I know that he is giving me the stregth to make it through any rough times I encounter and he lives everyday in the hearts of anyone who knew him. I love you bubba....and miss you more than you can ever know.
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